hey... just realised you're my onli fren left tat i could confide into... today's a superb day... nearly drowned, gt caught in the rain... and now she's avoiding me... life is very interesting rite ? dun know hw i shld feel, dun know wah i shld do.. was online with tabs juz nw... for the first time in my life.. i felt totally hopeless.... she wouldnt even reply my msn messages... wat is wrong with me ? Am i too irritating ? have i yet become another nicholas ? why is it that every one in the world treat me like trash and throw me ard ? is it because i'm to friendly ? is it because i never seem serious ? sometimes i fill like juz dying away.. its prob betta dis way.. no one wuld really care anyway...i'm nt crying nw.. but my heart feels like a a knife has been plunged in and out every min and sec of this disgusting life... doesnt anyone in the world reali care and wish for me ? all my life i keep telling myself even though people do not always do you favours, u shld still do them favours because this is hw it shld be... when people feel dwn they look for me to tok to ... but wat abt me? am i nt human ? whu do i look for when i feel dwn ? i hv so many sisters, but do they even care for me when i need it ? blog.. you're the only person i have with me nw.. dun leave me.... pls dun....
